Sunday, December 11, 2011

ehmm

i thought it was love,
then i realized it was just a crush.

i thought it was a crush,
then i realized it was only a tiny bit concern.

i thought it was you,
then i realized it's always been just me.


u're just too far away to be reached,
and the one with the stupid thoughts is always me.




-mental galau for today's posting-

Saturday, November 26, 2011

she's fallen

November 26th, 2011
12:37AM

not sure what to write.
but one thing for sure is that,
i think someone's starting to fall (again)
into a new autumn breeze.

should she just be cool
like she always does?
or should she just try to be
a lil bit concerned?
for even once?

just a tiny bit concern
of spending a second or two
feeling butterflies
jumping around her shoulders

trying to make sure
that the steps would match
where they go
at the mirror
where sights meet

like an unintended moment
trying to make sure
of how the eyes
will give words
striking deep inside

not a single word
have came
even on a fallen pen
or a lost book
or a vacant seat
beside her

it doesn't matter though,
cz she's enjoying it..


*gaseumi seollae.. (n.n~)

Wednesday, November 02, 2011

nothing works out today -__-"

it always feels nice having the inspiration to write again. even thou kali ini mood gue lg kurang enak dari pagi..

ok, mulai dari bangunnya gw tadi pagi jam 7. sbnrnya gue lg mimpi enak, lg nyenyak2nya, tp entah kenapa badan gue pgnnya bangun.. gue ngeraba2 selimut, nyari2 kacamata item gue yg super gede plus ada bekas patah di frame kanan atas, (yg malemnya uda gue paksa dilem lagi, gara2 kacamata yg biasa gw pake dirumah mendadak ilang entah kemana) gue letoy jalan ke ruang tv ngeliat mba della lg ngikutin senam-entah-apa-itu yg katanya ngencengin badan. mba husnul baru ngeluarin lasagna dari oven panas2, bikin langsung ngiler. gila enak banget!! fyi, ini lasagna full home made. mulai dari lapisan pasta lasagna nya sendiri. ehh ngga denk, salsa del monte ama beef kalengannya dari toko :p tapi full of cheese dong (gibna rumi nih, khusus dikirimin bokap hehe) =P~ siapapun yg nyoba pasti ketagihan! fufu. *lebay

pas gue lg enak2nya makan, mba husnul tiba2 ngabarin berita yg bikin gue lemes. air mati! dan perlu diketahui, idup di jakarta bersamaan ama komunitas nyamuk tukang ngisep darah ini bikin gue ama mba della ga suka nampung2 air di bak ky rumah2 org2 biasanya, karena bikin sarang nyamuk (just like wut we learned back then). kita lbh suka make air langsung dr kran ama shower. jadi, kejadian air mati mendadak bgini emang selalu bikin kesel. pagi2 pula! ini PAM minta digaruk kali yah lama2! TT___TT" oke, gue berusaha sabar. tapi ngga bisaaaaaa!!! karena gue tiba2 mules panggilan alam! udah berusaha gue tahan2, tapi ga bisa juga. tapi untungnya gue inget di kamar mandi kita selalu ada satu ember ukuran standar yg selalu diisi dan tertutup buat keadaan2 genting ky gini. tapi cuma satu ember!! oke, for now gue bisa jg akhirnya ke toilet.

awalnya gue tenang2 aja abis berhasil ke toilet. karena gue yakin hari ini ngga ada kuliah. soalnya ngga ada jarkom yang masuk inbox hp gue. fyi, walopun di kampus gue (dan dimanapun) wabah BB mulai ga sopan menyingkirkan dunia org2 yg ga pake BB *seperti gue*. tapi di kelompok gue punya ketua *namanya kiki* yang selalu ngejarkom sms juga buat mereka2 di kelompok yg ga pegang BB *termasuk gue*. tapi entah kenapa kali ini si kiki sama sekali ngga ngasi tau gue. dan tiba2 temen gue yg lain *namanya Alvin* sms gue nanya kapan gue nyampe kampus, dia ngajakin bljr bareng pagi2 sblm kuliah ktnya. shock dong gue??! kok ada kuliaaaaaaaaaaahh? kenapa gue ga tau?? T___T" sekali lagi gue tertimpa wabah pengyingkiran-orang2-ga-pegang-BB. dan gue udah cukup cape denger temen2 gue blg "makanyaaa pake BB dong fir". gue selalu blg, ntar aja kalo gue udah sampe to the extent manusia ga bisa idup tanpa BB, baru gue beli deh. dan sepertinya kali ini gue tertohok. kayaknya gue emang udah waktunya butuh BB. -___-" *hate to admit!! D*MN!

gue buru2 siap2. aduh beneran mandi koboi deh nih gue!! sambil nahan nangis (efek dramatisir) gue mandi dengan air seiprit! yaudahlah yah ntar pulang gue mandi lg.. *sedih* sampe akhirnya gue baru brgkt dari rumah jam stgh 10 (kuliah jam 10). biasanya gue brgkt kuliah 45 menit sblm jam kuliah. atau kalau kuliahnya jam 8, gue biasanya brgkt sejam sblmnya. pdhl sbnrnya rmh gue ama kampus kepleset nyampe. gue di utan kayu-pramuka, kampus di salemba. tapi untuk sampe kampus gue perlu naik 3x angkutan umum. miris kan? bener2 deh jakarta..

gue biasanya dari rmh jalan kaki dl sekitar 5-10 menit ke tempat ngambil angkot untuk nyampe ke jln raya. pas ngeliat ada angkot 10 meter di depan, gue mulai lari2 buat ngejar angkotnya biar ga pergi dl. biasanya, gue bayar angkot itu cuma seribu, soalnya emg deket. tapi tadi, abang angkotnya ngomel2 sambil ngelempar seribu gue ke dashboard. ga peduli jg gue dy ngmg apa, soalnya gue jg lg pake headset. gue udah pernah ngalamin kejadian ini sekali sblmnya, dan itu gue sampe hampir nangis ngomel2in abang angkot yg uda ngeluarin kata2 kotor di muka gue. jadi, kali ini gue berusaha santai, pake muka datar, ngeluarin lg seribu yg super jelekan (pdhl hrsnya nambah gopek aja, tp gue uda males ama org2 ky gitu). uda ditambahin, ni abang masi ngomel, dan seribu gue yg satu lagi itu dilempar jg ke dashboard. ga sopan!! uda ditambahin lebih dr biasanya bahkan, masih jg kelakuannya ky gitu?? dari peradaban mana mas, ga tau terima kasih??? jadi, gue turun dari angkot sambil rada ngebanting pintu. okay, i admit sbnrnya gue ga perlu ngebanting. tp gue uda kebawa emosi, meskipun ga separah dulu waktu uang gue malahan dilempar keluar mobil. itu parah gila, kejadiannya lg puasa pula. naik darah lg gue kalo inget2 kejadian itu.

masalahnya gini loh. abang2 angkot yang ky gitu tu cuma 1 banding 100 angkot2 yang gue naikin selama ini. angkot lain santai2 aja gue kasi seribu. kenapa yg ini ngomel2? kalo emg seribu itu ga cukup buat jarak segitu, ya janjian dl kek ama abang angkot yg lain semuanya, tarifnya dibuat seragam kek. be smart bang! *masi esmosi*

kali ini gue ga mau emosi berkepanjangan. abis naik angkot itu, gue naik metromini 46 ke matraman. abis itu ganti angkot M01A ke arah salemba. biasanya total brgkt ke kampus 5000 doang. tp hari ini krn kejadian si uang seribu, jadinya 6 ribu deh. -_-" ya Allah, tp piping ikhlas ko.. :)

nyampe kampus, gue lari2 kecil ke arah gedung D lantai 2. nyampe sana, kok yg gue liat malah anak2 chikiballs ya? [chikiballs tu bahasa senior buat maba, soalnya mereka kemana2 hrs pake jaket almamater UI yg warnanya kuning. uda ky sekumpulan chikiballs haha] gue keluar dari gedung D, dan ngeliat ke arah lantai 4, bener ternyata anak2 angkatan gue disana semua. -_-" pdhl biasanya kuliah ini tmptnya emg di gedung D. baiklah, gue dengan sabar naik ke lt 4, sekaligus 2 tangga - 2 tangga biar cepet nyampe. gue udah ngos2an ke atas, kaki rada gemeteran (minggu2 lalu gue ikutan tanding basket, voli, futsal, plus dancerobic, dan sbg hasil dari ngga pernah olahraga, seluruh badan gue pegel2 selama seminggu). nungguin masuk kelas, tiba2 ketua angkatan gue ngumumin kl ternyata kuliah dibatalin gr2 dokternya (ga boleh sebut merk ya) tiba2 ga bisa. gue ngedengus sebel. kalo emg tau hari ini ngga bisa, hrsnya konfirmasi kmrnnya dong dok. tp ok mgkn hr ini dy ada masalah dadakan yg ga bisa ditawar. baiklah, gue berusaha sabar.

ketua angkatan gue jg ngumumin satu lg berita buruk, katanya masih ada klmpk2 yg blm nyerahin tugas "Alat Bantu Pendidikan" ke departemen, termasuk kelompok gue. gue bingung dong, org kt temen2 klmpk gue udah dikumpulin kok. ternyata stlh gue tanya2 lg, ada dokter lain yg minta juga kopi tugasnya. sedangkan kelompok gue waktu itu ngumpulinnya ke pembimbing kelompok. tp pls dong mereka ada di departemen yg sama, bisa tinggal minta liat kan? T_T" oke baiklah gue berusaha sabar lg mgkn dokter yg ini emg begitu orangnya. walopun deep inside, gue ga suka ama dosen2 yg suka bikin segala sesuatunya ribet. ga suka! dan cukup sekali ini aja ketemu yg bgini.

temen2 kelompok gue nyerahin tugas ngeprint lg ke gue ama Ines. tp sblm ke warnet, Ines minta ditemenin ke kantin dl beli bubur, soalnya dy belom sarapan. sekalian gue beli es teh manis jg, aus gila abis lari2 ngejar angkot, naik turun tangga 4 lantai. gue rogoh kantong celana. tp kok duit gue tinggal segini ya? tadi gue brgkt dari rmh bawa Rp.52.000,-. dipake beli pulsa 6ribu, angkot+metromini 6ribu. es teh manis 3ribu. harusnya masih ada 37rb. tp kenapa duit gue cuma ada 27ribu??? TT____TT" gue cukup yakin tadi pas beli pulsa kembaliannya emg kurang 10ribu. ah stupid me, kenapa gue ga ngecek lg ya tadi?? gue lemes.. lumayan juga kan keilangan 10ribu? apalagi mba dela blom gajian.. *sigh

nyampe di warnet, rameeee banget.. bahkan lebih rame dr biasanya kalo pagi2 sblm kuliah jam 8. gue minta ke masnya mo ngeprint warna, tp mo ngambil file nya di email dl. gue tau komputernya lg dipake semua, tp biasanya ga lama. mastiin, gue nanya ke masnya kira2 lama ga ngantrinya? masnya blg masih lama bgt, soalnya ada yg lg ngeprint 68 halaman warna. buset! yahh, org2 ky gini nih yg bikin waktu jadi ga efektif *sok bijak*. di warnet ini ada sistem titip print dr malemnya, caranya dikirim ke email warnet. jadi, paginya bs tinggal diambil dan bayar. tapi orang ini mgkn masih baru, atau emg bukan org kampus salemba, maka terjadilah kejadian antrian berkepanjangan ky gini. -_-" ga nanggung2 jg 68 halaman warna pula. ckck. akhirnya dengan sabar, gue ama Ines nyari warnet lain yang tempatnya rada ke pelosok2 area kampus salemba yg bahkan gue yg udah kuliah 3 taun disini ga tau. hebat si Ines tau aja. hahah

abis ngeprint gue ke klinik integrasi soalnya vicky mo ngecetak rahang atas gue lg buat dijadiin subjek karil dia. sbnrnya gue udah pernah dia cetak sblmnya, tp ilang hasil cetakannya. -_-" ehm, baiklah.. tp utgnya vicky termasuk temen yg gue srg kumpul bareng, jd gue ga keberatan jg. :D abis dicetak, gue ke fotokopian buat motokopi diktat prof Budiharto buat bahan ujian gue besok. *fyi, gue sama sekali belom bljr!! xD* abis ngeprint, gue ke perpus bntr mo balikin kemeja merah nya Muthe yang baru2 ini gue pinjem buat lomba dancerobic berhubung gue ga punya kemeja merah polos. gue masuk ke perpus, ngedatengin Muthe yg lg bljr bareng ama anak2 angkatan gue yg lain. tas gue bawa masuk, meskipun gue tau sbnrnya ga boleh. tp gue kan cuma mo nganterin baju. lagian perpus sekecil itu, semua org jg bisa liat kalo emg gue mo nilep buku. tapi ada satu bapak2 pegawai perpus yg rada neriakin gue yg bawa masuk tas ke dalem. yaelah gue jg sering ngeliat org lain msk2 bentar bawa tas pak.. gue dgn sabar blg "iya pak, saya cuma bentar ko ini mo ngmg sm temen saya". "itu tas ga boleh dibawa masuk!!!". "iya pak, saya cm bentar..". "ayo taro tasnya di depan! kan itu udah ada raknya!!!!". "iyaa paaak! iniii sayaaa cumaaa maooo ngasiii bajuuuu!" akhirnya gue rada lepas juga ngmgnya rada gue teken2 gt. abisan gue cape dengernya, bawel jg si bapak.. sampe org2 di perpus pd ngeliat ke arah gue. ahk gue udah bete, buru2 baju muthe gue kasi. trs lsg keluar dr perpus. gue udah terlalu sering berurusan ama org2 di perpus ini. ada dua pegawai yg demennya ngmg rada nyindir dan suka ga sabaran. dan dua2nya udah pernah ngelakuin itu ke gue. ok, buat skrg gue bisa sabar pak. but not for the second time!

Friday, July 08, 2011

"7 Years of Love" by Kyuhyun "Super Junior"

Here's my favorite song. "7 Years of Love" sang by Super Junior KYUHYUN. an extremely heartbreaking lyrics..

7년을 만났죠, 아무도 우리가 이렇게 쉽게 이별할 줄은 몰랐죠
(chilnyeoneul mannajjyo, amudo wooriga ireohge swibge ibyeolhanjureun mollajjyo)
We met for seven years, no one knew we would say goodbye this easily
그래도 우리는 헤어져 버렸죠, 긴 시간 쌓아왔던 기억을 남긴채
(geuraedo woorineun he-eojyo beorijjyo, gin sigan ssahawatdeon kiogeul namginchae)
However we still separated, in my memories our arguments remained for a long time

우린 어쩜 너무 어린나이에 서로를 만나 기댔는지 몰라

(woorin eojjeom neomu eorinnaie seororeul manna gidaenneunji molla)
How did we at such a young age meet each other, I don’t even remember how
변해가는 우리 모습들을 감당하기 어려웠는지도
(byeonhaeganeun woori moseubdeureul gamdanghagi eoryowonneunjido)
Because it was really difficult for us to handle the maps of our changing selves

이별하면 아프다고 하던데 그런것도 느낄수가 없었죠
(ibyeolhamyeon apeudago hadeonde geurongotdo neukkilsuga eobseojjyo)
They said saying goodbyes are painful, but I didn’t even have time to feel that
그저 그냥 그런가봐 하며 담담했는데
(geujeo geunyang geurongabwa hamyeon damdamhaenneunde)
we told ourselves calmly "that's just the way thing turns to be"

울었죠 우우우 시간이 가면서 내게준
(ureojjyo u,u,uu.. sigani gamyonseo naegejun)
But I cried, as time passed at my own
아쉬움에 그리움에 내뜻과는 다른 나의 맘을 보면서
(aswiume geurume naetdeutgwanen dareun nawa mareul bomyeonseo)
regretting and missing, looking at myself with a different heart
처음엔 친구로 다음에는 연인사이로
(cheoeumen chinguro, daeumeneun yeoninsairo)
At first friends then next as lovers
헤어지면 가까스로 친구사이라는 그 말 정말 맞는데
(he-eojimyeon gakkaseuro chingusairaneun geu mal jeongmal manneunde)
It's true what they say "when you break up, it's difficult to stay as friends"

그 후로 3년을 보내는 동안에도 가끔씩 서로에게 연락을 했었죠
(geuhuro sam-nyeoneul bonaeneun donganedo gakkeumssik seoroege yeonrageul haesseojyo)
Still after that for 3 years, we kept in touch once in a while

다른 한 사람을 만나 또다시 사랑하게 되었으면서도 난

(dareun han sarameul manna ttodashi saranghage dwieosseumyeonseodo nan)
Even if I met someone else again, even I loved again
슬플때면 항상 전활걸어 소리없이 눈물만 흘리고
(seulpeulttaemyeon hangsang jeonhwalgeoreo sori-eobshi nunmulman heulligo)
Whenever I was sad I would call you, without a word crying silently

너도 좋은 사람 만나야 된다
(neodo joheun saram mannaya dweinda)
Telling you "you need to meet a good person too"
마음에도 없는 말을 하면서
(maeumedo eobsineun mareul hamyeonseo)
When I didn't mean it
아직 나를 좋아하나 괜히 돌려 말했죠
(ajik nareul joh-ahana gwaenhi dolyeo malhaejjyo)
Telling myself for nothing "maybe she still likes me"

알아요 우우우 서로 가장 순수했었던
(arayo u,u,uu seoro gajang sunsuhaesseotdeon)
I know, we had the most pure love
그때 그런 사랑 다시 할 수 없다는 걸 추억으로 남을뿐
(geuttaen geurin sarang dashi halsu eobtaneungeol chu-eogeuro nameulppun)
Back then we thought that kind of love couldn’t be done again, that it'll only remain as memories
가끔씩 차가운 그앨 느낄때도 있어요
(gakkeumshik chagaun geu-ael nekkilttaedo isseoyo)
Once in a while I feel a cold feeling from you
하지만 이제는 아무것도 요구할 수 없다는 걸 잘 알죠
(hajiman ijeneun amugeotdo yoguhalsu eobtaneungeol jal aljyo)
But now you clearly know there's nothing that I can do now

나 이제 결혼해 그 애의 말듣고
(na ije gyeorhonhae geu ae-eui maldeutgo)
Hearing her words “I’m getting married now""
한참을 아무말도 할 수가 없었죠
(hanchameul amumaldo halsuga eobseojjyo)
After that for a long time I was speechless
그리고 울었죠 그 애 마지막 말
(geurigo ureojjyo geu ae majimakmal)
Then I cried they were your last words to me
사랑해 듣고싶던 그 한마디 때문에
(saranghae deutgoshipteon geu hanmadi ttaemune)
Because the only words I wanted to hear was that you loved me

Monday, May 30, 2011

my past, present, and future goals.. i guess? ;D

haaaa-yeummmm!! hoho!
gue tiba2 kangen banget pgn nulis2 lg di blog. haha. ga tau knp dr kmrn gue keinget mulu sama hari2 gue sejak umur 5 taun. ketika memori bayi mulai tersimpan *cieh
gue inget banget masa2 gue TK. gue manja banget sm satu2nya guru TK gue waktu itu, bu Luki. tiap hari gue telpon ke rumahnya. gue masih inget banget nomer telpon rumahnya sampe skrg. Bu Luki jg ternyata sampe skrg masih tinggal di rumah itu ^^ tiap telpon gue selalu nanya pr. yg sbnrnya ga perlu ditanyain apa2 lg. wong pr anak tk cuma nyalin huruf ko. haha. tp ga tau knp dulu tu gue demeeeen banget nelponin bu Luki. ^^ gue ada tuh foto waktu gue masih TK dgn centilnya berpose lg sok2 nelpon bu Luki. jyahahahhaha. oia, waktu TK gue samaaaa sekali ga pernah mau pake celana. gue dulu centil banget. manja pula. trus kolokan banget. apalagi sm nyokap gue. dulu tuh rumah gue ada 2 pintu keluarnya. yg satu di pintu utama, yg satu lg di dapur. dan karena gue ga pernah ngijinin nyokap gue pergi tanpa gue ikut, akhirnya waktu kecil gue sering banget ditipu ama nyokap yg pergi dr pintu dapur, sedangkan gue lg diajak main sama om2 gue [mahasiswa2 azhar yg srg tinggal di rmh gue]. dan gue selalu tertipu!! haish..

trus waktu itu gue inget pertama kali TK cuma berdua sama Rama. hahaha. main berdua, makan jg cuma berdua. nyanyi2 cuma bertiga sama bu Luki. yaampun sedih banget deh masa kecil gue. haishh.. uda gt gue smpet pny cinta monyet ama si rama. huahahhahahaaa.. ini pertama kalinya gue ngaku deh kayanya =)) sampe akhirnya dateng isna sama farah. dan akhirnyaaa gue ada temen cewe. waktu itu gue nempeeeel banget sama isna. kmn2 berdua mulu. kalo farah akhirnya dy waktu sd jd ade kls gue. gue isna rama naik kelas 1 sd. plus ada anak baru tyas ama haikal (tp smuanya manggil dy aa', tau haikal kecil, soalnya ada lg haikal yg lain di sekolah gue). jadi deh kita sekelas berlimaaa.. happy happy happy childhood days! xDD liat foto kita waktu sd "before-after" AHAHAHHA click here!

gue sama isna tyas sempet bikin "geng" gituu. namanya diambil dr singkatan nama kita. yaitu TIP. atau TPI. atau PTI. whatever enaknya lah yah hahaha. dulu kita bertiga sebeeeeeeeeeel banget sama cewe2 yg beda satu kls di atas kita. tersebutlah temen2 gue yg namanya deby, mona, halimah, oni, dan marwah. dulu kita bertiga selalu ngerasa ngegeng dari mereka. ga tau deh merekanya jg ngerasa kita bertiga tu saingan apa ngga. [btw, saingan apa jg gue ga ngerti ahahahha!!] trus kerjaan kita tiap istirahat pasti jalan2 gandengan bertiga ngelilingin sekolah gue yg fyi cuma satu gedung dengan 4 lantai, plus lapangan basket kecil di blkg. trus sambil nyanyi ga jelas, ketawa2 ga jelas, di tangan kita masing2 megang sekantong chipsy [kl disini semacam chitato gt lah yaaa]

gue inget jg sekelas pernah main semut2an pake tong sampah kecil yg ada di kelas, trus kliling2 kelas. trus suka main rumah2an, bokap nyokapnya kalo ga rama isna, ya aa' isna. pokonya gue ga pernah jadi nyokapnya. karena gue yg plg muda di kelas, gue selalu dijadiin anak terkecil. nasiiiipp nasip.. -.-" trus kita jg pernah main gotong2an pake penggaris kayu di kelas, kita pake dua penggaris gitu, trus satu orang naik di atasnya, yg lain gotong di tiap sisi penggaris. dan ternyataaa kita 'sukses' matahin satu penggaris kayu di kelas kita. hahahahhah! untungnya lg musim dingin, dan rama hari itu pake jaket yg agak gombrong. jd kita masukin patahan kayunya ke dlm jaket rama, trus diem2 bareng2 ke blkg sekolah, ngebuang 'barang bukti'. xDD

oia, gue jg inget dulu gue isna tyas sering gosip2 jg tentang anak2 cowo di sklh kita. bener2 ya, cewe mo kecil, mo gede, yg namanya ngegosip tu uda wajib kayaknya. tp gue ga bisa nyebut merk disini. masalahnya bkn rahasia gue doang, :p *ngeles. pokonya adaaa deh 'crush' kita. yg jls gue sama tyas dulu suka sama org yg sama. [ini uda beda yaaa sama cinta monyet gue yg pertama xDD dasar anak kecil!!] hahahha

daaaan beranjak kelas 4 atau 5 gitu, isna tyas aa' tiga2nya harus plg ke jkt, krn orgtua mereka udah selese masa tugas di cairo. sdgkan gue ama rama yg fyi ortu kita local staff, jd kita ga kemana2 deh. sampe lulus sd gue sekelas sama rama. waktu itu gue baru ngerasain ga enaknya ga pny temen cewe sekelas.. alhasil gue bergaul sama temen2 cewe di kls lain, including deby, mona, halimah, oni, marwah yg notabene kita semua sama2 lahir dan gede di cairo, jd kita pny smthg like 'ikatan batin'. [pdhl dulunya gue ngomongin mereka mulu, haha. sorry yaaa guys!! muah muah!! :p]

akhirnya teruslah gue beranjak jadi anak smp. ini masa2 gue seriiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiing banget moody. gara2 satu cowo. hahaha. aduh ini gue nulisnya bener2 agak setengah hati. tp yaudahlahyah uda masa lalu. :DD yaaa alkisah intinya gue pny crush yg bertepuk sebelah tangan *cieh hahahha. si cowo ini ternyata oh ternyata jg pny crush yg tiada lain salah satu dr temen2 deket gue yg sejak lahir bareng itu.. tiap hari gue harus ngadepin yg namanya bisikan2. berhubung gosip ttg gue ini sepertinya udah menyebaaaaaaaar ke penjuru negeri. gue slalu ngerasa ga pny pendukung, slalu ngerasa sendiri, dan gue makin renggang aja ama temen2 gue yg sejak kecil itu. pokonya tiap hari gue yg nyendiri *hiks*, gue slalu ngerasa jam istirahat itu hell bagi gue. gue lbh baik di kelas, ngerjain soal, main sama temen2 skelas gue yg fyi cowo semuaa [rama, reno, wawang].

singkat cerita, cowo ini jg akhirnya spt sebagian temen2 gue yg lain hrs plg ke jkt soalnya ortunya uda slese masa tugas. dan gue memberanikan diri confess ke dia lewat surat. [huwaaaaaaaaaaa!!! i said it!! >.<"] gue kasi ke dia waktu di airport. aduh gue kalo nginget2 lg, serasa mo lompat aja ke laut dan menghilang. oia!! ralat! sbnrnya waktu di airport menjelang dia check in itu sbnrnya gue ga jadi mo ngasi. tp tiba2 satu temen deket kk gue, [yg jg tau soal surat itu] gemes sama gue yg ga jadi ngasiin surat. akhirnya dia dgn sedikit maksa ngambil surat itu dr tas gue, dan langsung jingkrak2 di antara kerumunan orang yg lg ngelilingin cowo ini, dan ngasi surat itu ke dia. man! wktu itu perasaan gue antara takut, ama seneng. ya takutlahh ini masa depan gue gmn caranya ngadepin dy lagi kalo misalnya ketemu lagiiii coba?? muka gue mo ditaro dimana? tp gue jg akhirnya ada rasa lega. krn bbrp hr kemudian gue ktmu dy di msn. dan dy blg makasih. bla3. well, the story ends just like that. cz we're just pure friends. that's all ;) tp akhirnya sejak waktu itu, gue sampe skrg ga pernah mau ngaku kl pny crush lg. no matter what, krn gue ngerasa ga mau lg ngulang kesalahan yg sama, dmn feeling gue nyebar ke penjuru dunia, dan akhirnya jd omongan tiap org. ga tau knp, spertinya gue agak 'trauma' sama betapa moody nya gue waktu itu akibat semua respon org2 di sekitar gue. fuaahh, tp gue ga nyalahin siapa2 kok. it was all pure teenage love. smua org kynya ngalamin. haha

masuklaaah gue ke masa2 [yg kt orang2 indah bgt] di sma. dan gue masiiih juga cewe sendiri di kls. sampe akhirnya kelas 1 semester 2, gue dpt temen cewe lagiiii. horaaaaaaaaaayy!! namanya hikmah. tp dy lbh suka dipanggil osy. dr namanya hikmaturrOSYdah. tp gue teteup aja tuh ampe skrg manggil dy hikmah. mah! mah! hahaha. tp ternyata sprtinya akibat gue udah terlalu lama cewe sendiri di kelas, gue waktu itu butuh waktu lamaaaaaaaaa bgt baru bs akrab sm dy, dmn gue akhirnya bisa curhat2an ama dy, saling nginep2an, jalan2 bareng, dan itu baru kesampean waktu kelas 2 sma. gue tau bgt hikmah jg srg bete sm gue soalnya waktu kls satu, tiap plg bareng, gue slalu jalan duluan. sumpah gue jahat banget ya.. T_T tp itu karena gue masih ngerasa awkward sama dy. gue bener2 ngerasa bersalah bgt sm dy waktu itu. will you forgive me, mah? :(

selama sma gue selalu seneeeeeeeeeeng! gue waktu itu uda mulai bisa ngelupain semua kejadian2 buruk soal 'cowo'. waaaa, gue cukup ceritain yg satu itu aja kaan? berat euy nulisnyaaa xP dan gue semakin ngerasain friendship yg kuat sama temen2 sma gue. gue sebutin satu2 yaahh.. temen2 sekelas gue yg gila2nya ga bisa tertolong: HIKMAH, RAMA, USAMAH, RENO, ALIN, SATRIO [cerita ttg sekelas gue uda pernah gue post dulu. baca disini: part 1 part 2;) ] truuss temen2 yg satu kelas di atas gue, dmn isinya jg rata2 temen2 gue yg sama2 lahir dan gede bareng2 di cairo: DEBY, MONA, HALIMAH, ONI, MARWAH, ARNIE, NESYA, AMY, PUPUT, HAIKAL, IRFAN, NOVAL [gue jg pernah ngepost ttg mereka disini:) ]. juga temen2 deket gue yg seumuran ama gue tp jdnya ade kelas: IPEH, NINIK, ALYSA. trus temen2 deket yg lbh senior lg di atas gue: BAIM, VADA, KIKI, FRIDAY, CACA, DENNY, MBA FENA, MBA SISCA, KAK AGIS, aduh siapa lagi yah? maaf yaaa guys, yg ga kesebut, sepertinya gue lg mengalami amnesia sesaat xD

oia, gue jg sempet cinlok waktu ikutan lomba SILN di kuala lumpur. hahaha. and we ended up dating.. :") well, it was almost 3 years, but unfortunately we couldn't get any longer.. so we decided to break up.. well, we're still good friends up till now, and i hope there's nothing we have to feel sorry about.. :)

waktu sma gue jg sempet ngerasain masa2 puncak kebanggaan ortu gue, stlh ikutan lkir LIPI bareng Deby, dibimbing sama Bu Hera [guru kesayangan skelas gue, soalnya kita sering curhat2an sama beliau, pdhl Bu Hera guru Biology, bkn guru BP haha]. waktu itu kita ngajuin tema tentang studi komparasi mumifikasi di zaman Mesir kuno sama di Tanah Toraja. topik kita dipilih untuk masuk final! waktu itu gue ama Deby sama sekali ga ada bayangan bakalan lolos sampe final nasional, tp suatu hari tiba2 kepsek manggil gue ama deby blg kalo kita masuk final! waaaa.. gue ama deby akhirnya berangkat deh ke jkt untuk ngikutin final itu. kita presentasi di dpn juri, dsb. and finally! alhamdulillah di malem pengumuman, nama gue ama Deby, judul kita, plus nama Sekolah Indonesia Cairo disebutin sbg pemenang I di bidang sosial dan kemasyarakatan. gue ama deby sempet ga nyadar, dan liat2an bentar sampe akhirnya temen dkt kita waktu lkir nepok punggung kita berdua dan neriakin sekali lg pas di telinga gue ama Deby kalo kita menang. yaampun waktu itu semaleman suntuk kynya gue ama Deby ga berenti2 deh senyam senyum berdua. hahahha. selese pengumuman, kita smpet beberapa kali diwawancara sm wartawan koran2 gt. dan tanpa bosen, gue ama Deby ngejawab pertanyaan yg sama ke semua wartawan itu. sumpah that was probably the happiest moment in my life! sayangnya waktu itu nyokap gue ama Deby ga bisa ikut dtg ke malam pengumuman soalnya lg dipaksa ikut temen nyokap gue ama Deby ke Bogor. T_T dan gara2 itu nyokap gue plg2 ke cairo dipidatoin ama bokap gue gr2 ga nemenin pas pengumuman. tp overall, sbnrnya kita menang itu jg karena ada nyokap gue ama Deby ikut ke jkt dan nemenin kita berjam2 di LIPI waktu presentasi di dpn juri. thank you so much MAMA!!! <3 :) oia, makasih byk banget jg buat Bu Hera dan SIC yang udah ngasi kesempatan ini buat kita berdua.. :') gue ga tau gmn caranya ngebales semua jasa mereka.. cuma bisa berdoa semoga semua guru2 gue sukses keturunannya dan bahagia dunia akhirat!! amiiiiinnnnnnn!!

and that was all about my childhood and teenage days.. today? hmmm, gue skrg lg menjalani apa yg ada ajah.. hehe. kuliah, pulang, kerjain tugas, nyiapin bahan diskusi, persiapan ujian blok, ngebayangin hari2 nanti ketika gue udah skripsi, udah gt februari 2012 (amiiin ya Allah!) insya Allah akhirnya gue make baju wisuda, ngelempar toga, salaman sama rektor UI, dekan FKG, trus kluarga gue pd dateng, temen2 deket gue pd dateng, semua ngucapin selamet ke gue. kita foto2 bareng. udah gitu, gue klinik, ngadepin pasien2 dengan berbagai macam penyakit, kelakuan, latar belakang ekonomi, sosial, budaya. ada lg gue ngadepin pasien pedo (anak2) yg katanya feels like hell! hahahha. udah gitu, gue SUMPAH DOKTER GIGI! waaahh.. finally!!
abis itu? abis itu gue masih ngeblur nih. hehe. gue pgn lanjut spesialis, tp biayanya besarrr banget. sepertinya gue PTT dl kali yaahh, mencari nafkah. gue pgn keluar jawa aja. selain pengalaman di tempat yg super baru bagi gue, denger2 ktnya gajinya jg lumayan loh.. fufufu! :p gue tabung dehh buat program spesialis ama S2 mungkin.. abis itu? hmmmm...

marriage?? nah ini nih yg gue masih blm bisa ngebayangin. hahaha. love story gue aja masih ga jelas begini, masih labil2an ky anak SMA. easy to fall in love, easy to breaking heart, tryin' to find one true love. *jadi nyanyi deh gue.. haha :p

that's all folks!! ;DD

Monday, May 16, 2011

@mimomi --> suddenly became a peterpan fan in the middle of his boreness lol!


hari ini gue mampir2 ke blog temen2 gue. salah satunya ini nih: http://imimo.blogspot.com
he's got a bunch of daily stories that always made me burst into laughter in the middle of the night. hahaha. sooo, i just want to share one of his latest post (which is from 3 months ago in february -- i wonder why he rarely post any stories nowadays??) -.-" come on dude! i need inspirations! :p

this time i want to repost [baca: RT] his tweets [@mimomi] around peterpan fairytale story, made into some jokes [was it to celebrate the birth of peterpan? i guess, mo?] hahah. here they are!

Growing up is a pain-in-the-arse business. I never wanna grow up, its no fun

Wednesday, April 20, 2011

facts about Super Junior's Eunhyuk

hari ini gue mau sharing ttg idol gue gapapa yaaaa, lg labil niihh xD
he's got mostly everything that i want from a guy. well, at least not his faith of course :p


1. Birth name : Lee Hyuk Jae

2.Eunhyuk is best friends with Xiah Junsu of DongBangShinKi. They have been friends since childhood.

3. When asked who his ideal girl was Eunhyuk said that it was Emma Watson.

4.Before debut, Eunhyuk and Junsu came up with a plan to make Donghae cry.

5.Out of all the Super Junior members, Eunhyuk eats the most

6. Australia, Egypt, and Japan are the countries that Eunhyuk wants to visit the most.

7.Eunhyuk’s favorite colors are white, blue, beige, and grey

8. Eunhyuk has contributed to the lyrics of several of SuJu’s songs.

9. Eunhyuk enjoys playing the piano

10. Eunhyuk’s childhood dreams were to be a soccer player and a singer.

11. Eunhyuk used to collect snails. He says that cute animals are his favorites but he likes snails as well.

12. Because he is so skinny, Eunhyuk received the new nickname “myeol chi” (anchovy)

13. Eunhyuk has a birth mark on his right palm

14. When Eunhyuk and Junsu were younger, they joined a beauty competition where all of the contestants were males disguised as girls.

15. Eunhyuk’s favorite sport is soccer.

16. If Eunhyuk could be reborn, he’d want to become Wonbin, that’s why he even lied about his name during the trainee days.

17. Eunhyuk’s favorite fruits are strawberries, oranges and gyool (found in Korea). He loves strawberry milk.

18. Eunhyuk was often late for school

19. Eunhyuk hates half cooked food

20. Eunhyuk is very shy around girls. The members said that Eunhyuk is so shy, when he is alone with a girl, he won’t hold her hand.

21. When Eunhyuk was younger, his family was going through financial problems and his father had health issues. He had a girlfriend at the time, but had no money to spend on dates or gifts. He had been borrowing money from his friends but he didn’t want to do so anymore. He kept avoiding going on dates because he didn’t want to hurt her. The relationship ended like this. In the end, he says that he let her go because of love.

22. Schools that Eunhyuk has attended are SungSangYooAhWon-Preschool, ByungSuhl Kindergarten, NeungGohk Elementary school, HwahSoh High School, and HwahGohk High School.

23.In Japan, when the group was buying ice cream, Eunhyuk appeared with a bunch of sweets. When the members told him that he couldn’t have them, Eunhyuk started to cry. The members apologized and let him eat his sweets. He ate them as if they were the most delicious things, while still crying.

24. On a radio show, when discussing who among the members has the nicest lips. Donghae was quick to say “Hyukjae’s when he wakes up”

25. Eunhyuk is extremely protective over his laptop. He refuses to let anyone touch it. He was afraid that someone would find out his password so he changed it over 6 times.

26. ”I like moving. I like clearing up my room, and I like rearranging the furniture. This kind of frame of mind is very good, I like adapting to a new environment.”

27. Eunhyuk won’t let his wife work: “I will earn enough money, but I will also help her with household chores. I even washed the dishes in the dorm. If the ajumma doesn’t come over during the weekends, I wash the dishes. I am a family man.”

28. Eunhyuk wants his sister (Sora) to marry Siwon

29.In Korea, students have to take an IQ test, Eunhyuk didn’t take his in order to practice, because he usually left after his classes in the afternoon ended.

30.Eunhyuk pays attention to who is the female guest for the day, but the solo hoobae that he really likes, is IU.

31. born April 4, 1986

32. He is often called “BEJEWELED” or “the Jewel Guy” because of this choice of stage name and “the Dancing Machine”

33. When he was still a trainee, Eunhyuk made it to the top dance class.

34. Eunhyuk auditioned at the same time as Xiah Junsu and was rejected. He auditioned again a year later and was accepted.

35 Eunhyuk said that to keep his image as an idol, he shaves his legs

36. When he was in middle school, Eunhyuk went on a trip with Xiah Junsu and friends. During the trip an argument and fight broke out. In the end, Eunhyuk went over to Junsu to talk things out and apologize because he didn’t like having hard feelings

37. Eunhyuk has a dog, Choco, and a pet named Minki though he hasn’t stated what type of animal this pet is

38. Eunhyuk is very gullible. He’s been on the receiving end of pranks by the other members many times.

39. Eunhyuk is said to be the dirtiest (as in unclean) and smelliest member in Super Junior.

40. Eunhyuk is a crybaby

41. Eunhyuk likes to keep his secret him to himself because he was afraid if people will be worried of him, despite of this, Donghae is always worried and keep forcing Eunhyuk to tell his problem to him.

42.Eunhyuk sleeps alone in his room with dolls and a lot of pillows.

43. Eunhyuk likes Silver a lot.

44.Eunhyuk’s former room mate was Leeteuk and Donghae.

45. Eunhyuk likes to Dance because he said dancing was a part of his life.

46. Eunhyuk hates sharing food with people. He will cry if somebody eats his ramen because he thinks the amount of the ramen decreased and it felt weird. But we can see, he likes to share his strawberry milk with Donghae.

45. Eunhyuk was cheated back in 2008 by a mysterious girl.

46. Eunhyuk’s first love when he was 13.

47. Eunhyuk said Heechul is like a netizen more than a singer because Heechul likes to update his Minihomepage.

48. Eunhyuk is a very kind boy. He won’t get mad if you harassed him

49. Eunhyuk has a very good temper. The very opposite of Heechul.

50. Eunhyuk likes to promote his sister by saying “Annyeong, this is Sora, and SHE’S SINGLE” when Eunhyuk was a little boy.

51. Eunhyuk has an older sister, named “Lee Sora” but his sister always call him as “Oppa”.

53. He was called “Hyukkie” by all members

54. Eunhyuk is a strong Christian.

55. On March 13, 2008, while leaving the stage for M! Countdown, Eunhyuk fell and injured his right arm. His left arm was hurt as well but was not nearly as affected. After this accident, Eunhyuk wore a cast for several weeks and a bandage on his hand after. His scars from the fall are visible on his right hand.

56.Eunhyuk claims that his first appearance on television was in 1992. He had gone to watch the sunrise with his dad and was caught on film. That clip later appeared on a tv show.

57. Eunhyuk has his driver’s license and his own car.

58. Eunhyuk is one of the easiest criers in Super Junior.

59.Eunhyuk is known to be the stingiest member of Super Junior.

60. During a radio show, the members voted Eunhyuk as the member who watches the most yadong (erotic videos). There was later an article that came out that said, “Eunhyuk is a Yadong Mania”. After the article came out, his mom called him and asked him “Did I raise you to be this way?”

61. Eunhyuk did his first kiss in the bus

62. Eunhyuk said that he wants a candy kiss in this winter

63. Eunhyuk has 12 ways when he goes to sleep

64.Eunhyuk’s disney name is Peter Pan

65. Eunhyuk’s English name is Spencer Lee

66. He admires IU

67. When he was in an English village,, he couldnt speak english so he gave some money to the policewoman

68. He once borrowed Hee’s shirt…and he thought it was Donghae’s

69. Eunhyuk has said that he has a hard time expressing his feelings to others. He is thankful to the members for supporting him even though he cannot express everything that he would like to

70. His hobbies are studying, singing, piano, soccer and watching comedy programs.

71. Hyukkie helps in making the choreography!

72. When he’s having free times, hyukkie likes to search his name into the internet, or download videos who have him in it

73. Hyoyeon once texted Eunhyuk and he replied “sorry, eunhyuk has changed his number” and hyoyeon pissed off

74. Eunhyuk a.k.a Lee Hyukjae weighs 58 kg, is 177 m high and has a blood type O

75. There was an article titled ‘Eunhyuk is a Yadong Mania’. Then his mom called & asked “Did i raise you to be this way?”

76. Eunhyuk always tries to make his hair perfect, but during the roller coaster ride in ISF, he failed

77. EunHyuk had a lot of fur in his leg,sometime he used stocking to hide it

78. Eunhyuk was diagnosed with Swine Flu last February 25, 2010. ELF was very worried and praying for his fast recovery

79. He has the brightest smile in Super Junior.

80. Eunhyuk’s ideal girl: pretty, cute, fair-skinned, pretty eyes, girls with curly hair

81. Eunhyuk dislikes seafood

82. Hyuk calls himself ‘a jewel guy’

83. Was in the same group with Sungmin and Xiah during trainee days

84. He loves to keep his stuffs organized and never likes if anyone touches his cellphone screen

85. Eunhyuk and Junsu made a promise when they were younger not to drink and smoke

86. He had gone to watch the sunrise with his dad and was caught on film

87. On Leeteuk’s birthday in 2008, Eunhyuk stayed up all night the day before in order to record a song that he and the PD had worked together to create. The song was played on Teuk’s birthday as a surprise. Leeteuk was so touched, he cried

88. whenever eunhyuk mentions people of the same age, eeteuk will tease him about the awkward relationship with BoA

89. eunhykkie drools while he’s sleeping! so does kyu!

90. Eunhyuk’s room is the tidiest compared to other members but then he uses the room byhimself

91.that silly boy surprisingly has a big heart and amazing patience

92. on hyuk’s 6th grade, there were some girls fighting because of him. they yelled, “you’re not allowed to date hyukjae!”

93. Manchester United!!!! Eunhyuk’s favorite sport is soccer

94.eunhyuk wants to have two kids. a girl for the first, and a boy for the second. he said that the boy will be happy to have a noona.

95. I cried the most on June 25, 2006. It was when that our title song ‘U’ got first for mutizen. -Eunhyuk

96.hyuk is not very close with hankyung

97. when hyuk debuted, he keeps coveing his mouth when smiling because of his gums. but people say he looks cute smiling with his gums

98. eunhyuk’s record for the most hours slept in one shot is 17 hours

99. Eunhyuk likes girl who knows how to cook. He said “I wish I could marry a girl who knows how to cook good food”

100. Eunhyuk’s father got married at 28, and his mother at 27

101. Eunhyuk also really like eating instant noodles. He said ” I am an Instant noodles food expert”

102. whenever hyuk smiles, his gums can be seen. because of this he feels inferior

103. in two of hyuk’s bday videos, both videos show a white whipped,gram cracker crust cake with fruits on top

104. a highschool girlfriend of hyuk’s, told him to get his exam score over 85, or else she’d date another guy. then unfortunately, he only got 84. his girlfriend phoned him later to tell that she had gone watching a movie with a guy. hyuk was really mad over this

105. Sungmin and Eunhyuk usually sleeps in the same bed.

106. Eunhyuk’s first impression of Yesung wasn’t good because he thought had too much accessories on him.

107. Eunhyuk used to go to the shopping malls at Dongdaemun (in Seoul) at least once a month when he was young.

108. Eunhyuk tends to keeps to himself when he has worries. So Donghae gets upset when Eunhyuk doesn’t talk to him.

109. Eunhyuk was jealous with Kyuhyun’s nickname “Magnae on Top” so he named himself “Treasure on Top”.

110.When asked what number he likes, Eunhyuk typed: SE7EN

111. Even though no one can see his underwear, he still feels embarrassed just wearing it because it’s coloured.

112.Eunhyuk went out with his sister. When she was in the toilet fans went to him and asked who he was with.

113. Eunhyuk: “To me, life without soccer would be like living a mindless and empty life.”

114. Eunhyuk says when he talks and shares his stories in Sukira, he’s able to release his everyday stress.

115. Because Eunhyuk drools too much, the members sometimes collect it and then show it to him when he wakes up.

116. In the middle of the night, Eunhyuk does exercise in their living room

117. Eunhyuk doesn’t want to have a joint wedding because he wants to be the one and only main person.

118. twitter acc : http://twitter.com/AllRiseSilver

119. After he got abs, Eunhyuk lifts his shirt whenever he can.

120. Eunhyuk was given the Disney name ‘Peter Pan’ by Heechul because he thinks that EH will always be a child at heart

121. Has also been the co-host of Super Junior’s Kiss the Radio (SUKIRA) with Leeteuk, a radio show that promotes Korea’s music and pop culture. The show was established on August 21, 2006 and has become one of the more frequently tuned in radio channels of Korea.

122. In 2007, he said he was in love with a younger artist on his cyworld to keep his promise to be honest with his fans.

123. He also starred in the movie Attack on the Pin-Up Boys in 2007 along with the other members of Super Junior.

124. Eunhyuk participated in the drama Rainbow Romance in 2005 as a guest.

125. Eunhyuk want to be a soloist in a futuro.Aunque currently has stated that it would be a future producer.

126. Eunhyuk’s birthday in 2006, to complete a member presentation of Miracle on escenario.Viendo surprised him as many fans attended his birthday, Eunhyuk cried.

127.
Donghae: It is very cold, my hands hurt!

Eunhyuk saw this, and without saying a word Donghae took his hand and put it in your pocket.

Eunhyuk: Better now?
Donghae: * sighs * Yes comforted, much better!

128.While filming the marathon at night, Eunhyuk looks at his mobile phone all the time. At the time of rest, Eunhyuk takes out his cell phone from his pocket, looks, and disappears from the spot where the others were eating at that time. However, nobody knows where he’s gone.


souce: http://supersapphirepearls13.wordpress.com/facts-about-eunhyuk/

Sunday, January 23, 2011

love


Have you ever been in love?
Horrible, isn't it?
It makes you so vulnerable.
It opens your chest and it opens up your heart
and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up.
You build all these defenses you build up a whole suit of armor,
so that nothing can hurt you.
Then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person,
wanders into your stupid life.
You give them a piece of you. They didn't ask for it.
They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you,
and then your life isn't your own anymore.
Love takes hostages.
It gets inside you.
It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness.
so simple a phrase like 'maybe we should be just friends' turns into a glass splinter
working its way into your heart.
It hurts.
Not just in the imagination.
Not just in the mind.
It's a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain.
I hate love.


source: twitter: @neilhimself.